This world doesn't do slow. [A sigh out as Idia composed himself again, one hand dropping as he ran the other up through his hair before allowing it to drop to his knee as well.] I just have to deal with it, even if don't like it. No real time to do proper exposure therapy. [Plus Idia doubts taking it slow would change his view on himself. It's more... he has to learn to tolerate it.

Though...] Ah... once I, ah, get into it... it's easier to ignore. I think. Only really... had that happen once so... not enough to really know for sure. [All his paid times were just... to get the job done.]